2005-04-29 @ 4:29 p.m.....

i feel like, if i don't say anything, if i don't return phone calls or emails.... then i don't exist.

and i don't want to exist.

so i don't take part in this communication game.

but for all of my invisible-ness.... i want to be seen. like, really truly seen.

but there must be some cataclysmic event that will happen when that occurs. it couldn't be just ordinary people. it would have to be The Greatest Event of All Time.

I'm so full of myself, i'm empty.

I don't know what to do.

what had happened was.... ~ ....what comes next?