2004-12-29 @ 1:19 p.m.....

i'm perfectly content to keep going at this tortoise-like pace.

slow n steady wins the race.

i worry that i'm losing ground with Him. ground on the sane front. like, i think he thinks i'm insane.

but he knows i'm going insane for him.

that's the thing, i guess i never wanted to go crazy for a man before.

i draw up all these fantasies in my head and - usually they come crashing down around me and i move on before anything even starts....

right now i am actually contemplating buying a condo in NY.... wtf?

i rationalized the whole thing to myself last night. til 5am. so i'm sure that it was an airtight plan, right?

what had happened was.... ~ ....what comes next?