2 + 2 = what now?2005-07-17 @ 7:32 a.m..... so. i have a type. i just realized it. sure, there are exceptions to every rule. there are definitely exceptions. especially after i get to know a person. but when i first SEE someone. i have such a type that i am immediately attracted to and the probability is high that i start developing a unrequited crush almost immediately. a.q. these are the exact same person. i had a dream about a.q. the other night. damn. i really fell for him something awful!! then there was jj, which actually turned into a relationship. navy boy was a strictly physical attraction where he fell harder than i did and i couldn't deal. oh yea and then he went psycho on me and i definitely couldn't deal. A--. A--. A--. at least i can recognize how he fits into the pattern now. he's a little shorter and stouter than i would prefer. but yes, he's basically got the rest of the features down. if you've seen Crash, you've seen Michael Pena portraying the character Daniel - that's all she wrote. but then i just watched this movie yesterday, My Life Without Me, and Mark Ruffalo's character, Lee, clinched the whole thing for me. i said, dammnnnn. i have a big crush on him. why? because he's my type. with all those testing the waters of other "types" in college, i woulda thought that i had no clue what i liked. but no, i knew. i was just scared to get what i really want. i still am. because i just realized something else. another common bond. all of those that ended up in relationships/semi-relationships (ie, the non-movie people: aq, jj, navy boy, A--) were over a long distance. i still keep what i want and/or need as far away from me as possible. what's with that???? but anyway. dammmmmmmmmmn. A--, what have you done to me?????
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