i haven't decided.2005-11-30 @ 4:39 p.m..... i haven't decided whether or not to give this address to my #1 supporter in the whole world. what is wrong with me???? well, after narcissistically looking back and re-reading every. single. one. of my entries. from. the. beginning..... i have determined that i have multiple personalities, bipolar disorder, and manic depression. but. i. don't. let. it. show. i am the laid-back, easy-going, happy-go-lucky girl, who can take way more than you or even you could try to dish out. in that respect, i guess that i am strong. in that respect, i guess that i am slowly killing myself day by day. by letting things pile up and fester. and never. NEVER. letting go. it's sick. truly sick. my friend in NYC just got word that her brother/roommate is moving back to DC january 1st. it's for a promotion, so that's a great thing. but she is assed out in the city with no way of affording a decent place in One. Month's. Time. DAMN. these things happen, and i wonder if it's a sign for me to make a move. what if i commuted b/t NY and DC for a 4/3 workweek schedule. a lot of people do it. not necessarily the nYc thing, but they do it b/t w. va., delaware, PA. b/c this job pays So. Well. but it sucks. but it pays GOOD MONEY. and we can work from home 2 days a week. so that would mean Monday/Friday in NY, sat/sun in ny, tues - thurs in DC. i have a tiny 1 br coop that costs a Pittance, literally. it's like, i spend more on toiletries and clothes than i do on my apt. i would always be on the run though. but i'm young, isn't this when i'm suPPOSED to RUn? i don't know. i simply don't. it's not like this is the only solution. my girl could afford a cute loft in her area or even a 1br in the east village. so she's straight. i just wonder what i'm missing out on........... valuable life experience? maybe. may.be. it's funny how i can come in here totally prepared to write one entry and leave a completely different topic. my brain is slowly evaporating.
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