2005-06-16 @ 12:17 a.m.....

i need to update b4 they take away my entries!!

not that it would matter all that much, less evidence of my insanitay....

but i know i need it documented, i have gone through a TREMENDOUS tremendous growth spurt over the past year. like HOLY SHIT. I can see it now, through the eyes of my friends, as they recount to me the various leaps and strides i've made over the course of the past year.

i love my friends. have i said that before. i wouldn't or couldn't ask for better ones. holy SHIT. i love everybody so much right now.

i just had sucha good night, you know? when u meet people and they respond to you and you are able to speak to them and relate to them. and touch their lives and they touch yours......

i want to be amentor. i want to be there for a struggling DC youth who is in a similar situation as mine, all of that pent up potential and no where to channel it..... i want to help a kid with promise get into college, and be there when they have troubles along the way: the SATs, the applications, the interviews, the choices that come up and affect EVERY SINGLE minute of the rest of your life..............

i have a lot of positive energy after attending weekly meditation classes. i mean. unbelievable. being able to channel your visions and passions and insights. but also being able to let things ebb and flow - sounds, feelings, pain, everything...........

i'm glowing. i know i am.

and it's not b/c of a man. it's b/c of ME.

what had happened was.... ~ ....what comes next?